Birthday Gift from Abroad!!!!

I've never cried so much on my birthday before...omg....

But I have to say that this is one of the best birthday gift ever....

I'm so far away from them and yet this birthday gift felt so close at heart....

Thank you to all who has made the 23 years of my life memorable.... you know who you are :)
Thank you for shaping and molding me into who I am today...(well, still got loads more to improvelah...)

And ya, I have to take time and smell the roses coz they don't bloom forever....

I can't write anymore...tears just keep pouring and I can't even see the keyboard and screen properly....

I'll just let the videos do the talking...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kC7vVIIH23I

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YUPOjzzYQDY

(had some problem embedding the youtube videos...hmm, will try and figure out later...)

Thank you Pui Fun for creating the video and I will always rmb our funny times together especially at Vista...thx for leading me into Christ coz since then, I've grown tremendously and have a better perspective of life....hehe...

Thank you Min for always being the first to call and taking care of me all theses throughout the years I've known you and you do know that I'll be always be there for you no matter wat happens.....becoz Love endures forever ~ 1 Corinthians 13 ~

Thank you Li Yann for being part of my life for the past 10 years and since accepting Christ together, I've seen that you've grown so much and we were and still would be a blessing to each other's life... :)

Thank you Zi Yun for the beautiful message...and yes, you are right....friendship is really not measured by the amount of time we've known each other but rather above it all it's the quality that really matters...thank you for showing me when's right and wrong because it is through that only I learn and really make me realize that reality can be harsh if I don't try to be independent....thx zizi....and I will stop and smell the roses :)

Thank you Valene.........I cried most after reading ur msg...coz it reminds me of the time we studied together during EOS 7...I would have broke down if it is not because of you....Anywayz, you're stronger and better than you imagine yourself to be, so stay strong girl!!!! U can do it and looking forward to see your smiles :)

Thank you Li Shan for being my MOMMY!!!! and the CAMERAWOMAN!!! haha....will always cherish those times we had in VIsta...always playing mahjong, yum-cha, playing cards with the rest of your gang - Lydia, Mustaqim and Wei Loong...you guys really brighten the Vista days...hehe....and thx for always taking care of us in Vista...miss ur green calculator Li SHan!!!!

Thank you Jan for being a true friend of mine along with Min...all these year's we've spent together.....I'll nvr forget them....I miss hanging out with the both of you TOGETHER!!!!! ahhhh.......but hopefully...after all of us graduate, the 3 of yus can sit on the same table and yak throughout the night :)

Randomness

~ Nothing can hurt unless you give it the power to ~

Every Little Thing Counts

It didn't occur to me to talk to the 60 year old lady with pancreatic cancer....

2 days ago, she seemed happy and talking about how she wanted to live till she sees her granchildren gets married

Today, she seemed as though fate had betrayed her

And yet at that time, I was thinking of how to have fun and where to go etc...

When I finally gave a thought about this, it's too late d...

Does the medical profession sucks humanity out of you?

I remember I wasn't this cold when I just started....

GOD BLESS YOU LOKE CHAI, wherever you will be :)

P.S. Even the smallest thing you have to offer to others counts :)

Love Letter

Dear Father,

I still remember the days when I trod along those corridors so aimlessly.
I felt down, tired, helpless.
I marched with heavy steps and tears overfilling my eyes like how rain water overfills the gutters during downpour.
No one to reach out to, I feel so doomed.
But luckily I have You.
I know I have to battle my emotions myself.
But I couldn't have done it without You.
Those days are over but my gratitude towards You shall linger.
I really pray that the days ahead will be brighter and sunnier.
I cannot feed depression.
Neither can I succumb to it.
Because my Father says "TAK NAK" to negativity.

Love,
Sunflower :)




My child,

You may not know me, but I know everything about you.

I know when you sit down and when you rise up.

I am familiar with all your ways.

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered.

For you were made in My image.

In Me you live and move and have your being,

For you are My offspring.

I knew you even before you were conceived.

I chose you when I planned creation.

You were not a mistake,

For all your days are written in My book.

I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live.

You are fearfully and wonderfully made.

I knit you together in your mother's womb,

And brought you forth on the day you were born.

I have misinterpreted by those who don't know Me.

I am not distant and angry, but am complete expression of love,

And it is my desire to lavish My love on you

Simply because you are My child and I am your Father.

I offer you more than my earthly father ever could,

For I am the perfect Father.

Every good gift that you receive comes from My hand,

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs.

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope

Because I love you with an everlasting love.

My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore,

And I rejoice over you with singing.

I will never stop doing good to you,

For you are my treasured possession.

I desire to establish you with all My heart and all My soul,

And I want to show you great and marvellous things.

If you seek Me with all your heart, you will find Me,

Delight in Me, and I will give you the desires of your heart,

For it is I who gave you those desires.

I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine,

For I amyou greatest encourager.

I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles.

When you are broken hearted, I am close to you.

As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to My heart.

One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes,

And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth.

I am your Father, and I love you even as I love My Son, Jesus,

For in Jesus My love for you is revealed.

He is the exact representation of My being.

He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you,

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled

His death was the ultimate expression of My love for you.

I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love.

If you receive the gift of My son Jesus, you receive Me,

And nothing will ever separate you from My love again.

Come home, and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen.

I have always been Father, and will always be Father.

My question is.....Will you be My child?

I am waiting for you.

Love,

Your Dad,

Almighty God.

Funerals

i'm dissapointed....just so dissapointed :( i should just forget bout it...

i dunno why...i know i shouln't feel this way...but i just am...argh

God will free me of this, He WILL!!!!

Anyways, went to basic doctrine today...

Then something struck my mind...

Mr Daniel Lim played a youtube video by Yasmin Ahmad (it received an award)...

Touching...

Then he asked us, "What would you be remembered for, if it was your funeral?"

I have asked myself this before while I attended my cousin's funeral not too long ago.

I asked myself, "What if this was my funeral? Will anybody attend it? Has what I done be sufficient enough to leave trails of memory, here on Earth? What would people here remember me for?"

I really do not want to live my life here with just the aim to pass another day.
I do no want to wake up in the morning and fill the rest of the day with pure routine work....an not caring bout the rest of te world...
There's so much I want to do, but I don't know i I'm called for it? I also dunno.
Maybe,I really need to realign myself with God, so that I know what He wants me to do, to reach out for His glory.

Anywayz, I think I'll just have to let go of the matter at hand and learn how to enjoy the blessings of God. God Bless everybody!

No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful, he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he wil also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.