Random Rants

Exams finally over...............Now keeping my fingers crossed......

Went to church today...Li Yann came to fetch me...then she makaned some dessert and i drank Sarsi....just the usual stuff we do...Come 4.55pm, we went into the hall for church service....shook Pastor's hands....also the usual stuff we do...

When we started worshipping, that's when it's rather unusual...I just felt that, wah....it had been a long time since i've been to church (though it had just been a week) .Then i felt like I was finally at home again....back towhere I really belong...Needless to say, my tears were pouring endlessly throughout the whole worship...during the worship songs, the prayers and even holy communion...

Dunno why I feel so emo...I guess it must be the stress of exams that has taken toll on me...stripping me off my spiritual life...and when I'm finally filled with spiritual love again I can't help but just let tears of love for my Father flow....The lyrics were speaking to my heart today...The content of the prayers too....and I am glad that I have Him by my side.

Throughout this whole exam week, I could sense His presence. Compared to EOS 3, I was a lot calmer this time. In sem 3, I had panic attacks during ospe and osce...My mind even went blank for some of the same stations and I had palpitations for every station I went through...When I kena marah by Htin Aung in one of the osce stations, my heart literally shattered and my mood was kinda affected after that....

But somehow, this time...I had the sense of reassurance...this time around though i screwed up damn a lot of osce and ospe stations, I still felt calm and cool for the other stations....no more palpitations, no more panic attacks... I felt happier this way...though exam was tougher than the last, I felt better and calmer this time....And though I'm worried if I would get viva next week, I know that God has His plans all worked out for me and no matter what the turnout may be, I'll accept it...

Praise the Lord for bringing me through my days of darkness...In the future, when I graduate as a doctor, I will serve and contribute to the community as much as possible. I will answer your calls and serve my people to my very best. And no matter what happens, my heart is always for my patients and the people around me and of course, for my Father, Jesus Christ.

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As I was studying for EOS, I told myself, not to let studies be 1st priority....I have to keep close to God...and I also told myself, I just have to pass this exam...I know that we're created for greater purposes and greater things rather than just studies alone...

Wherever I went, people are just talking bout EOS....I was thinking to myself, IMU is ending in like a few days time and we're not even given the opportunity to cherish the times we had left in IMU...2 1/2 years of friendship isn't actually a short period of time....The bonds we shared together as a batch....and the KKB trips....I will never forget that....especially the wan with DR Sasikala...she's my role model man....I know that her heart is always for the people and she made me realize that being a doctor was my calling...Dr Sasi, gbu wherever you are... :)

On our farewell party, Htin Aung and Hla Yee Yee gave a very special speech....I'm not sure if the message spoke to the others, but it really spoke to my heart...

Dr Htin said, " Do i empathise if I scold you and you cry? No, I won't. If you can't even handle a simple thing like this, how would you handle bigger things in the future? I am strict because I want to bring the BEST out of you."

Wah...when he said this, all my hatred for him suddenly was kinda erased... (not all though...hehe...) The level of my respect for him suddenly grew from -1000 to..mmm...dunno? but definitely a positive figurelah....hehe... Dr. Hla ended beautifully with a quote on success....

But I still dunno how they got married....two totally opp characters...but i guess it takes yin and yang to balance off the energy...hehe...

Oklah, my head, throat and eyes killing me d....gotta catch back some sleep...God Bless EVERYONE!!!!