STRESS, STRESS, STRESS!!!
Troubled.
Time to realign my life.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Reminiscence
Was just growing through the older posts in my blog....
And I just realized how "strong" the posts were.... Did I even write those?
And I just realized how much I miss my friends... :(
And I know that I could've done more than what I am doing now.
And I just realized how "strong" the posts were.... Did I even write those?
And I just realized how much I miss my friends... :(
And I know that I could've done more than what I am doing now.
Reminder
I must remind myself of this vow I made earlier in this blog :
In times of difficulty, remember these two things :
1. Your purpose in life is not about scoring good results, strive for "earthly" excellence(fame, money and what not), be the best doctor nor it is about doing as much good deeds as possible to better your relationship with those around you. It is about GOD. If your relationship with Him is right, everything will fall into place.
2. Your life in the world is just temporary before we reunite with Him. Everything in the world will pass. So wat is the point of worshipping or dwell too much about earthly things when you know that these things will only hold during your lifetime in Earth? Isn't it better if we dwell in stuff in the world that will better ourselves in preparation of the eternal life we're gonna have after this?
I know these are not evidence-based. But my testimony of my walk with Him can be of evidence. And all I can say is that it is 100% faith-based. That's how I passed my EOS 5 without breaking down. These are the principles I hold onto everyday. I have to remind myself about these 2 things and life seems so much simpler after that. Clearer mind, clearer objectives in life.
My faith was at the "height" that time. And now it's beginning to wither. And clinical school should not be an excuse.
I can't believe I've grown so cold now. I hope it's not too late to change.
Continue to speak to me, Oh Lord. And I'll promise to try and fulfill the tasks you tell me to do.
In times of difficulty, remember these two things :
1. Your purpose in life is not about scoring good results, strive for "earthly" excellence(fame, money and what not), be the best doctor nor it is about doing as much good deeds as possible to better your relationship with those around you. It is about GOD. If your relationship with Him is right, everything will fall into place.
2. Your life in the world is just temporary before we reunite with Him. Everything in the world will pass. So wat is the point of worshipping or dwell too much about earthly things when you know that these things will only hold during your lifetime in Earth? Isn't it better if we dwell in stuff in the world that will better ourselves in preparation of the eternal life we're gonna have after this?
I know these are not evidence-based. But my testimony of my walk with Him can be of evidence. And all I can say is that it is 100% faith-based. That's how I passed my EOS 5 without breaking down. These are the principles I hold onto everyday. I have to remind myself about these 2 things and life seems so much simpler after that. Clearer mind, clearer objectives in life.
My faith was at the "height" that time. And now it's beginning to wither. And clinical school should not be an excuse.
I can't believe I've grown so cold now. I hope it's not too late to change.
Continue to speak to me, Oh Lord. And I'll promise to try and fulfill the tasks you tell me to do.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Rantings....
My body feels weak,
My heart feels even more feeble,
but You told me to have Faith,
You told me to be Strong,
Because no matter what happens,
I have You to fall back on,
And this is the biggest encouragement,
For me to carry on,
Because I know that with Your strength,
I will pull through,
Through darkness/rainy days,
I know You will be always looking out for me,
If I continue to seek you with all my Heart and Soul.
My heart feels even more feeble,
but You told me to have Faith,
You told me to be Strong,
Because no matter what happens,
I have You to fall back on,
And this is the biggest encouragement,
For me to carry on,
Because I know that with Your strength,
I will pull through,
Through darkness/rainy days,
I know You will be always looking out for me,
If I continue to seek you with all my Heart and Soul.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
JOURNAL 1 - Watching for God
I'm about to embark on a whole new journey with God...and I am about to pen it down right here, as a testimony for myself and benefit of others...( and sorta to revive my blog as well...hehe)
Here I go...
Date : 19/2/2009
Title : Watching For God
Scripture : 1 Kings 18:41-46
Many a times, in the midst of our busy-ness, we shun God out of our lives. During the days when I have to go to the hospital, every other day is a mundane routine and struggle for me. I dread to wake up to the beginning of the next day and at times, all I want to do is just sleep, so as to avoid myself from thinking about the task and uncertaintiy that is gonna lie ahead of me.
Nevertheless, I continue to pray hard...pray and pray and pray and right now, I think I am beginning to see God's work in me. I begin to see the purpose of whatever I am doing and begin to realize that God has His own purpose for me.
Sometimes (actually all the time), to appreciate God's word, we have to open our heart fully to Him and wholly depend on Him. Next question is, "Would that make us totally dependent on Him?" I guess, we gotta be "selectively" dependent on Him (if you know wat i mean. We have to do our art to the very best and whatever we can't control, we leave it to Him. I've tried this many times before and guess what? He never leaves me struggling, He blesses me and shows me the way, in His own, mysterious ways...Bless the LORD!!!
If we fo not open u our hearts, minds, ears and eyes for HIm, we may end up like Elijah's servant in 1 Kings 18; not being able to reognize God's answer for us. We have to tune ourselves to God's frequency by consistently looking out for His word'works.
1 Kings 18 :44 ; A cloud as small as a man's hand is rising from the sea
1 King's 18 :45 ; Meanwhile the sky grew black with clouds, the wind rose, a heavy rain came on...
Only Elijah recognized that the small wisp of cloud was God's work at hand. Who would've thought that the small wisp of cloud would bring rain over the drought that has empowered Israeal for years? Only Elijah did.
In summary, this scripture has taught me two things :
1. The power of prayer (Elijah prayed and prayed for the rain to come)
2. Tune in with the Lord so that I can recognize his work/word
Thought For The Day :
A tiny change can signal the beginning of a miracle. Think small!! - Jolynne Keough
There it is --- the journal from my Growth Journal...Hope that in future I would have time to journal...
Odios!!!
Here I go...
Date : 19/2/2009
Title : Watching For God
Scripture : 1 Kings 18:41-46
Many a times, in the midst of our busy-ness, we shun God out of our lives. During the days when I have to go to the hospital, every other day is a mundane routine and struggle for me. I dread to wake up to the beginning of the next day and at times, all I want to do is just sleep, so as to avoid myself from thinking about the task and uncertaintiy that is gonna lie ahead of me.
Nevertheless, I continue to pray hard...pray and pray and pray and right now, I think I am beginning to see God's work in me. I begin to see the purpose of whatever I am doing and begin to realize that God has His own purpose for me.
Sometimes (actually all the time), to appreciate God's word, we have to open our heart fully to Him and wholly depend on Him. Next question is, "Would that make us totally dependent on Him?" I guess, we gotta be "selectively" dependent on Him (if you know wat i mean. We have to do our art to the very best and whatever we can't control, we leave it to Him. I've tried this many times before and guess what? He never leaves me struggling, He blesses me and shows me the way, in His own, mysterious ways...Bless the LORD!!!
If we fo not open u our hearts, minds, ears and eyes for HIm, we may end up like Elijah's servant in 1 Kings 18; not being able to reognize God's answer for us. We have to tune ourselves to God's frequency by consistently looking out for His word'works.
1 Kings 18 :44 ; A cloud as small as a man's hand is rising from the sea
1 King's 18 :45 ; Meanwhile the sky grew black with clouds, the wind rose, a heavy rain came on...
Only Elijah recognized that the small wisp of cloud was God's work at hand. Who would've thought that the small wisp of cloud would bring rain over the drought that has empowered Israeal for years? Only Elijah did.
In summary, this scripture has taught me two things :
1. The power of prayer (Elijah prayed and prayed for the rain to come)
2. Tune in with the Lord so that I can recognize his work/word
Thought For The Day :
A tiny change can signal the beginning of a miracle. Think small!! - Jolynne Keough
There it is --- the journal from my Growth Journal...Hope that in future I would have time to journal...
Odios!!!
Saturday, January 24, 2009
EXHAUSTION
I'm EXHAUSTED.
Sometimes I don't even know why I'm doing what I'm doing now.
There are other paths, why did I choose this?
I hope to find the answer soon.
And I know He has the answer.
Hopefully I'll be enlightened with the answer soon :)
Sometimes I don't even know why I'm doing what I'm doing now.
There are other paths, why did I choose this?
I hope to find the answer soon.
And I know He has the answer.
Hopefully I'll be enlightened with the answer soon :)
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