At The End of The Day

I was reading Our Daily Journey today and I came across this :

"Success in life is measured by how many people actually do love you. That's the ultimate test of the way you've lived your life. " ~ Mike Wittmer

Not too long ago, I attended by cousin's funeral. Those close to me would know that he was involved in a freak accident. Imagine losing someone who is your sister's age. Haih. Really pity his family. But he returned to the Lord. His father is happy for him. I'm happy for Him too. That was a major comfort for me.

Somehow, I believe that his death is actually a blessing in disguise. The entire family received Jesus as their personal Lord and saviour after his death. My uncle is one who only sees truth through evidence and hard facts. And so does his older son. Spirituality or whatsoever just isn't in his/his son's dictionary. They are very much practical people, just as the world calls them to be. And for me, to be able to witness my uncle announce to everyone during my cousin's funeral that the entire family had rededicated their lives to the Lord just brings so much warmth to my heart.

This incident taught me a lesson, that I could lose my life at any second, any moment. Our biological clocks are ticking by the second, without us realizing it. Sometimes, death is imminent, unavoidable. It left me pondering for quite some time and I repeatedly asked myself these questions :

1. If I were to die today, what would be the one thing that I regret not doing?
2. If I were to die, would anybody attend my funeral?

1. And it dawned upon me that the one thing I regret not doing is not doing enough for the Lord.
As a child of God, I have the duty to share with the world about Him, His words, His works...and so far, I don't think I have achieved anything close to it... :( And if I could live for another second, the reason would simply be : TO SERVE GOD

2. And I guess the answer to question 2 would be what Mike Wittmer mentioned (as stated above) kua.

I once had this conversation with a friend :
Friend : What actually keeps us going in medical school/when we become doctors in the future is actually the fact that you know that you have touched someone's life, no matter how small a deed you've done for a patient. And when you know this, it really just makes your day.
And I totally agree with him. Even a simple chit-chat can make a patient smile. And the fact that you know that you made the patient carve a smile no matter how scrawny he/she may look, it really does make your day. Well, it made my day at least! haha :)

So, all in all, one important lesson I learnt is that I have to live my life to the fullest and that is to be judged by GOD and no one else. These two phrases keep popping into my head recently :

1. This was during EOS 7. No matter how enthusiastic and how well you start the race, the equation sums up to zero if you do not end your race well.
2. In whatever that I do, I do not have to answer to anyone, except to GOD and GOD alone.

I realized that I am an enthusiastic person. However, in the process, I tire myself too much in the beginning, only to realize that I do not have enough energy and strength to carry on as I am near the finish line. And I regretted for not realizing this earlier. Haih. Hopefully I'll hold on to this reminder in the future.

And when sem 8 starts, I hope to start afresh. And everday, when I walk through that famous IMU walkway, I hope that when the breeze that always brushes lightly unto my skin, the sunlight which shines so ever brightly as the words "Hospital Tuanku Jaffar" etched in red looms near and when I look up into the vast blue sky, graced by wispy white culumonimbus, I would be reminded of God's presence and that He is in charge...and when I trod through those glass doors, I hope that I will be filled with so much peace and joy by the beauty of His creation that I drank in earlier...Just as what I have experienced on many days in the past... :)

Best Friends Forever

Sometimes in life, there are really bonds formed that can never be broken.

Sometimes, you really can't find that one person who will stand by you no matter what.

Maybe you'll find it in a spouse and celebrate it with a dream wedding.

But there's also a chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime,

The one person who knows you sometimes better than you know yourself,

Is the same person who has been standing beside you all along.

~ Bride Wars ~

Let's Leave This Titleless...

It's been so long since I fell in love with a song and keep playing and playing it.

~Anhedonic~

Phony Laughter - Laughter can conceal a heavy heart, but when laughter ends, the grief remains...

I came across this, during quiet time :

Hunter Adams, the physician whose life story was the basis for the 1998 film Patch Adams, has spent his career encouraging doctor-patient relationships that rely heavily on the use of humour and play. Adams believes establishing this kind of connection with a patient is essential to improving their physical and emotional health.

Laughter and humour are an important part of life. The book of Proverbs says " a cheerful heart is good medicine" (Proverbs 17 :22). Generally speaking, all of us ould use more laughter in our lives.

While there's certainly a time of humour, however, sometimes laughter can be a disguise. People can actually appear to be extrememly happy, yet inside they feel like an emotional wreck. as a counselor, I;ve had a front row seat to people telling some og the most tragic stories of personal suffering, only to end by laughing about it. It's true. Sometimes laughter or making a joke is little more than a cover-up. We can joke around us as a way to hide from others so they won't take us seriously. And many of us have learned to play the clown and hide a lot of deep heartache behind our humour and wit. The book of proverbs says " Laughter can conceal a heavy heart, but when laughter ends, the grief remains" (Proverbs 14 : 13). Although laughter can mask the pain, the pain is still there and we need to address it.

There comes a time in everyone's life when we must face the heartache of life rather than hide from it. There's a time to turn our laughter into mourning (Eccletasiastes 7:3) and invite God to speak words of comfort and healing into wounded places of our heart.

Don't let phony laughter get in the way of the comfort and healing only God can bring. - Jeff Olson

Haih, sometimes I think this message applies to me. I may be all happy, smiling and portraying a cheerful personality on the outside, but sometimes it is just a facade to hide some of my heartaches....There are some heart-wrenching incidents in my life, and I choose not to face it and it's probably somewhere hidden in my hippocampus....and I try so hard to be with other people, so that I can take my mind of things and be happy....but I guess it's better to face it?

But, reality is so cruel and I dare not face it sometimes, so I choose to avoid. Not a very brave move, but I can save myself from the heartache for the time being. However, I know the BEST way is to FACE it and DEAL with it. But it's not easy. Haih. But when you're done dealing with it, it will feel so much better. Wished I had all the courage and wisdom in the world.

But, I'm happy. I know that God has prepared for me an exciting journey ahead. And the only person I have to answer to is God. Nobody else. So, as long as I live my life right with Him, I don't have to worry about anything or anybody. And I learnt my lesson. The most important thing is to FINISH THE RACE. Though no matter how well you started the race, but if you stumble in the end, all the effort is deemed worthless. Slow and steady wins the race. :)

P.S.- So many buts...that's my life, full of buts...
Haiyo, it has been long since I posted up a happy post...hmm, shall get pics from others to cheer up my blog a bit!!!