EMOTIONS

I PROMISE NOT TO LET MY EMOTIONS OVERWHELM ME!!!

I PROMISE. I PROMISE.

:( or :) ? Maybe it's :):

Sometimes my life sucks so much that I can't see beyond what I'm doing now.

I can't believe I let my emotions overwhelm me to the point I fell like I can't breathe. To a point I feel stuck and no where to go. To a point where i just end up in roundabouts.

I must STOP doing that. STOP. STOP.

Thank you friends for being there for me. You all know who you are :)

And to do myself, my friends, my family and my GOD a favour, I have to REPENT and CHANGE and REALIGN myself, for the better.

I have to rise up again and conquer my weaknesses.

But Obs is quite a tough hurdle.

EOS too.

I guess we have to see things from diff perspectives rite? A friend who smsed me today made me realized tat. And it is important not to allow circumstances / situations to frighten or torture you. I may be at my worst. But other people may have it worse.

Dododo, Dadada

Last week, I was dead tired.

Dead physically, mentally and spiritually. Was back at Seremban last Saturday, missed church and it has been hectic everyday since.

Yesterday's service was awesome. Really did refresh and strengthen me. Seeing fellow Christians around me and watching how they praise and love God touches my heart. Watching the kids performing little actions while worshipping makes my heart smile :) The speaker yesterday really did speak to my heart and no matter how difficult the journey ahead will be, I can always turn to Him. No matter what happens, I can always turn to Him. When everything fails, He will Never fail.

I really like paeds posting, I really do. Just that I'm not doing enough to do well in it. Haih, must buck up!!!

Stress

STRESS, STRESS, STRESS!!!

Troubled.

Time to realign my life.

Reminiscence

Was just growing through the older posts in my blog....

And I just realized how "strong" the posts were.... Did I even write those?
And I just realized how much I miss my friends... :(
And I know that I could've done more than what I am doing now.

Reminder

I must remind myself of this vow I made earlier in this blog :


In times of difficulty, remember these two things :

1. Your purpose in life is not about scoring good results, strive for "earthly" excellence(fame, money and what not), be the best doctor nor it is about doing as much good deeds as possible to better your relationship with those around you. It is about GOD. If your relationship with Him is right, everything will fall into place.

2. Your life in the world is just temporary before we reunite with Him. Everything in the world will pass. So wat is the point of worshipping or dwell too much about earthly things when you know that these things will only hold during your lifetime in Earth? Isn't it better if we dwell in stuff in the world that will better ourselves in preparation of the eternal life we're gonna have after this?

I know these are not evidence-based. But my testimony of my walk with Him can be of evidence. And all I can say is that it is 100% faith-based. That's how I passed my EOS 5 without breaking down. These are the principles I hold onto everyday. I have to remind myself about these 2 things and life seems so much simpler after that. Clearer mind, clearer objectives in life.

My faith was at the "height" that time. And now it's beginning to wither. And clinical school should not be an excuse.

I can't believe I've grown so cold now. I hope it's not too late to change.

Continue to speak to me, Oh Lord. And I'll promise to try and fulfill the tasks you tell me to do.

Rantings....

My body feels weak,
My heart feels even more feeble,
but You told me to have Faith,
You told me to be Strong,
Because no matter what happens,
I have You to fall back on,
And this is the biggest encouragement,
For me to carry on,
Because I know that with Your strength,
I will pull through,
Through darkness/rainy days,
I know You will be always looking out for me,
If I continue to seek you with all my Heart and Soul.